16th December 2018: Remembering I Don't Know

Today, I am grateful/thankful,

To remember that I do not know. Keep searching. What is the answer? I do not know. Keep searching.

27th September 2018: Christine Blasey Ford

To be thankful / grateful

For Christine Blasey Ford, her testimony, example and humanity.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HnczBf3DSnk

25th March 2018: (Image 1) / (Image 2) / (Image 3)

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

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24th March 2018: MarchForOurLives / Mum's Birthday / Thomas Paine Conversation

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for those in #GreatNorthernMarch

more so, for those in the streets for #MarchForOurLives

for my mother’s birth - her birthday.

for Empty Shop, Durham.

for my friend leading a conversation on Thomas Paine.

23rd March 2018: Recognition Of Conditions / Private Time / Mistaken Phone-Call

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for recognising a sudden attack of stress and conditions playing up.

for feeling more comfortable in the legitimacy of removing myself from interaction whilst I get myself into a way I can manage properly with other people.

for speaking having a telephone call where I spoke to someone thinking they were someone else for the entirety of the call, without doubting afterwards. 

22nd March 2018: Old Friend / Being Challenged / New Ideas

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for seeing an old friend.

for having my thoughts around power dynamics and identity challenged.

for some new ideas for some new writing.

21st March 2018: Returned Girls / Empty Car Park / Feedback

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for the return of 76 abducted school girls in Nigeria.

for the feeling of walking through a large empty car park in the dark.

for supportive feedback.

20th March 2018: The Funeral Murders TV Programme / The Loop / The Spring Equinox

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for a programme on The Funeral Murders in Ireland.

for The Loop (@WeAreTheLoop) organisation and the work they do.

for The Spring Equinox.

19th March 2018: Deptford Town / Street Conversation / Thoughtful Card

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for Deptford town. I love that part of London.

for lively conversation in the street.

for a thoughtful card.

18th March 2018: Marshall Arisman / Extra Level Of Hope / Friendly Competition

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for the artwork of Marshall Arisman. I’ve been staring at two pictures by him for a long while without realising their connection. I love that satisfying feeling of having your feelings about one thing validated by a connection to the values of another thing.

for feeling an extra level of hope, almost the tingle of excitement clearing the sawdust from the floor.

for friendly competition.

17th March 2018: Haircut / Lighter / Jolly Meal-Time

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for a haircut.

for a day lifted from heavier thoughts of late, and therefore more present and productive.

for a jolly dinner.

16th March 2018: A Friendly Voice Telephone Interview / Blood / Drum Lesson

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for a friendly voice conducting a telephone interview.

for blood.

for the recommendation of this drum lesson.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T1j1_aeK6WA

15th March 2018: Sandwiches / Deep Looks / Filling Days / Blood-Pressure Monitors

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for a delicious sandwich. for the idea of a sandwich. for new and exciting ideas in food creation.

for sharing a brief look that runs deep.

for the more things you put in your days the more room you have to put more things into your days.

for blood-pressure monitors.

14th March 2018: Walkouts / USSstrike / Bumping Into An Old Friend / Roaming Telephone Conversation

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for all involved in the walk-outs organised for today, standing up to gun-violence. for the fucking students - for the youth. #nationalwalkoutday

for those lecturers and allies continuing to picket for pensions. #USSstrike

for bumping into an old friend.

for a wonderful roaming telephone call with a close friend.

13th March 2018: Rejections / Interviews / Calling Out The Emperor With No Clothes

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for thoughtful and considerate job rejections.

for generous offers of interviews

for those who tell the Emperor that he is wearing no clothes.

12th March 2018: Hopefulness / Writing / Serenity Prayer

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for hopefulness

for writing. It saves.

for the Serenity Prayer

11th March 2018: Immigration / Brushing Hair Harshly / Different Sweat / Mum

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for immigration, emigration, people moving around as much or as little as they want to, with as little economic restriction as possible.

for brushing your hair harshly and finding a good pain/pleasure balance.

for the different smells of sweat, sex, fear, exercise, heat etc…

for my Mum.

for all mothers, for all who mother.

10th March 2018: Jack Whitten / Phasing on Dysnomia / S - Shape

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for the artwork of Jack Whitten.

for the phasing on the album Dysnomia by Dawn Of Midi

for a backward S - shape, hugging around me during a meditation.

9th March 2018: Passenger Door First / Tourists / Good News For Mum

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for those that open the passenger’s door, ensuring that the passenger is comfortable first before taking their place, around the car, and into the driving seat. For attentiveness within the smaller actions, often.

for stylish and considerate tourists asking me for directions. 

for further good news for my Mum.

8th March 2018: Patience / Disposable Jokes / Redemption / Women

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for                         patience.

for the foolish whimsy of disposable jokes.

for the potential of redemption for all.

for women.

7th March 2018: Accidental Capture / Sending Parcels / Warm Milk / Birthday

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for the image capture of accidentally scanning your hand.

for the pleasure of sending a parcel.

for taking time to warm milk to add to granulated coffee, before adding hot water. For the feeling of the process, but also the results.

for the birth of a friend.

6th March 2018: Lady Bird / Hedgehog / The Mulberry Vets

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for the warmth of Lady Bird. Many confirming scenes. Took you gently through changes. It acted like a guide to go through growing up again in your mind, like the best coming of age movies. It was lovely to see it with Mum too. It offered many chuckles as well.

for the children that alerted me to a precarious hedgehog.

for The Mulberry Vets taking in the poorly hedgehog and seeking to help them.

5th March 2018: Barry Fox T-Shirt / Heartfelt Risks / Motion Through Depression

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for Barry Fox, for his wonderful art, and him supplying me with this lovely T-shirt.




for heartfelt risks.



for finding motion in spite of a rise of depression.

4th March 2018: Pong and Brick Breaker / Soundtracking Baths / Feel Of Beanie Hats

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for Pong and Brick Breaker

for soundtracking baths

for the feel of beanie hats.

3rd March 2018: Rewatching, Relistening / Assistance Of Clearing Snow / Young Fathers

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for things that take a few watches, listens, reads to appreciate.

for those with heavy equipment that have helped out to clear the snow from public roads, and spots where it is potentially dangerous.

for Young Fathers.

2nd March 2018: Stalactites / Heavy Dreams / The Dark Paintings

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for stalactites.

for heavy dreams

for The Dark Paintings

1st March 2018: Civilisation / Dear White People / Two Wonderful Phone Calls

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for a new Civilisation series.

for the particular power of the realisation of scenes in Episode 5 of Dear White People. The threading of lines in the narratives of this series is incredible.

for two wonderful calls with good friends.

28th February 2018: Playing In The Snow / Job Opportunities / Second Version Of Triptych 1944

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for a road absent of moving cars, and children and adults playing in the snow.

for job opportunities to apply for.

for Second Version Of Triptych 1944

27th February 2018: Mum's Good News / Electric Toothbrush / Al Cummin's Book

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for Mum receiving some important and positive news at work.

for a new electric toothbrush

for an old friend’s book being published.

26th February 2018: Fiberoptic Cables / Barry Fox's Art / Relief

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for Fiberoptic cables

for Barry Fox’s art-life and artwork.

for relief, and the practice of collecting evidence to help to shift emotions into a more peaceful place.

25th February 2018: Outside Of Money / Joan Cornellà / Mother’s Curiosity

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for those that see no glory in money.

for Joan Cornellà’s mind, artwork and storytelling.

for my mother’s curiosity whilst showing me her coin collection.

24th February 2018: Understanding Vice/Virtue Beyond Law / Brave People At Yarl's Wood / Detained Voices

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for those that understand that there are criminal acts that are illegal, and criminal acts that are legal. That there are virtuous acts that are legal, and virtuous that are illegal.

for the brave people at Yarl’s Wood. #HungerForFreedom

for Detained Voices for providing important reporting on this shameful conditions.

23rd February 2018: Resistance Of Arms / Lost & Found / Stacy Keach

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for anyone who creates any resistance to the selling of arms - for someone who does not purchase arms, for someone who votes out politicians that support arms sales, for those that destroy weapons, render them ineffective.

for finding something that someone else had lost, and for being able to find it, and bring them relief from worry. To lose. To find.

for Stacy Keach’s performance as Cameron Alexander in American History X. It’s subtle, but yet creates a powerful air of aggression. Control issued through manipulation and suggestion. I keep coming back to this movie. I've watched it a lot, but it never weakens. I never feel like repeat watching of it is a waste of my time, either something new, or it triggers another thought. 

22nd February 2018: Trust / Girls On The Edge / Aid To Eastern Ghouta

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for being given trust in something specific.

for the programme, Girls On The Edge. For Jade, Jess & Erin and all involved.
https://www.bbc.co.uk/iplayer/episode/b09srk9h/girls-on-the-edge

for those helping to get aid to the people of Eastern Ghouta.

21st February 2018: Amplifying The Voices Of Children / Clive Wilson / Edith Beales

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for my friend encouraging her class of children with their enthusiasm to combat the unnecessary use of plastics, and littering with plastics. For helping create a community spirit around this issue.

for Clive Wilson’s paintings. I can’t find much online, and unfortunately I can’t reach him to ask permission to share the postcard copies of the images we have of his work back here, but keep an eye out for this wonderful artist. He achieved some notoriety in Ireland where he used to live.

for the two Edith Beales. Grey Gardens is a fascinating window.

20th February 2018: Carnage / Itchy Arsehole- Sticky Finger / Mixcloud

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for Carnage by Simon Amstell. I watched it on iPlayer. It has a humour inspired by the Iannucci Show/The Day Today for sure.

for two telephone conversations with two close friends. 

for the expression ‘those who go to bed with an itchy arsehole wake up with a stinky finger’

for Mixcloud. It really has cultivated a space where curators want to add thoughtful mixes.

19th February 2018: Siam Surgery / The Waiting Room Bump Into / Feeling Bodies / Lucien Freud

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for the Siam Surgery and its excellent Doctors.

for bumping into an old friend in the waiting room at the surgery.

for feeling your body, identifying your true shape and shapes. You can only really do this by using it in different ways. I’ve been using my mine in a very repetitive way of late and forgotten about its limits and possibilities. I think of Lucien Freud’s wonderful portraits when I think of bodies. He really gets into the skin, the fat, the muscle, the bones and shape. The stretching, the drooping. The irregularity. The peculiarity. The beauty.

18th February 2018: Walter Murch / Wild Field / Single People

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for Walter Murch’s sound design.

for a wild field behind some expensive houses.

for all the single people.

17th February 2018: Tea stains / Moving Without Travelling / #NationalSchoolWalkout

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for the gradient staining of a cup of tea made with hard water and the bag left in.

for pleasure of moving without travelling - an anti-Jamiroquai if you will - skipping, treading water etc…

for the #NationalSchoolWalkout organised by the people behind The Women's March. Getting people in the  streets,  some amplified sense of the votes that  representatives would  loose, demonstrate to those who are choosing a cowardly path.

16th February 2018: Removing Sponsorship From DM / Meeting Up With Friend / The Year Of The Dog

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for the Southbank Centre being another to make the decision to pull advertising in the DM.

for meeting up with a close friend, and sitting in an unusual part of a familiar pub.

for The Year Of The Dog.

15th February 2018: Granni's Coddled Eggs / Elephant Film / Teachers & Students In Dangerous Environments

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for Granni’s coddled eggs.

for Gus Van Saints ‘Elephant’ - and the humanity he captures.

for teachers and students continuing to brave practicing in dangerous environments.

for those who understandably do not, will not.

14th February 2018: Inside Of A Microwave / Byway / Love: Thoughtful & Often

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for seeing the inside of a microwave.

for walking a new byway, hidden in well-trodden landscape. It had escaped me!

for responding thoughtfully and often.

13th February 2018: The Girlfriend Experience / Walking Away / Mum Staying At Home To Get Well

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for Stephen Soderbergh’s ‘The Girlfriend Experience’.

for the understanding more than ever to walk away from certain voices, situations, if the context informs me that a reaction would not help at that time.

for Mum taking the day off because she is unwell. Through her life, she has always felt an authoritarian pressure to go into work when she needs to recover her health. I’m pleased she is recognising it does not diminish ones identity to put your health before the work. I worry for those in less secure situations, where making such a sensible choice would be punished with being dismissed. Such places are symptoms of a failed system. May we correct this.

12th February 2018: Morning Light / Nimco Ali / Conflict Of President Portraits.

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for a gentle morning orange light, and the indication of brighter, longer days. It’s not just feeling the present beauty, but the sense that feeling includes an incorporation of a future truth, a future optimism.

for Nimco Ali

for the conflict artists have accepting commissions to paint those in positions of power. There are many traps towards sentimentality and romanticising as terrible system through a humanising lens. However, with these Obama inclusions, as an act of confirmation that people of colour can achieve such a privileged position in the context of a country famous for its abuse and oppression of people of colour is a hopeful expression within that context.

11th February 2018: The Ballad Of Shirley Collins / Graveyard Supermarkets / Hail

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for Tim Plester & Rob Curry’s The Ballad Of Shirley Collins.
http://player.lush.com/channels/lush/tv/ballad-shirley-collins-film-tim-plester-rob-curry

for walking through graveyard supermarkets.

for Hail. Hailing. Spits of hail. Showers of hail. Rattling hail. Rush of hail.

10th February 2018: A Visit / The One's Below / Gil Hova's The Networks.

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for an unexpected suggestion of a visitation, and consequently, for a friend visiting. 

for the film, The One’s Below. A tense and painful story.

for Gil Hova’s board game, The Networks.

9th February 2018: Films In Darkness / Spot / Ewan Spencer's Photography

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for watching films with the lights off.

for Spot, and the idea of technology aiding the process of reporting sexual harassment in the workplace.

https://www.talktospot.com/about-us

for Ewan Spencer’s photographs of UK Garage nights in the late 90’s.

8th February 2018: Counselling / Ariana Grande / Conversation

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for agreeing a mutual farewell to a relationship that has been of profound value to me. A person who’s help and generosity I shall not forget. Counselling for all who need help, whatever the cause, now!

for Ariana Grande, and the her immediate bravery in response in the Manchester attacks. Got to thinking back to that event, and I am still astounded that she used her power and connections to turn around a concert within a week and invite bravery from so many with another concert in the same venue. When faced with no doubt personal trauma, to engage outwardly and creatively like that was an incredibly healing act.

for a great conversation with a close friend.

7th February 2018: Being Cared For / Bottle-Return Policy / Early Night

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for Dad kindly making me some food and a number of lemon tea’s as I woke up with with flu-symptoms, developed from those I felt at the end of yesterday. 

for the bottle-return policy nationwide in countries like Sweden, Norway… I’m lucky to have observed it in action, visiting my brother. We must implement something similar here as soon as possible. Such a straightforward, clear idea.

for the first early night in a long while.

6th February 2018: Telephone Call / Pictures / Equity.

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for a lovely telephone call with a close friend.

for pictures (I am drawing for my new album) developing freely, organically and well.

for all steps towards equity/ fairness. Power is rarely freely relinquished, corruption needs to be exposed and opposed. Often people suffer personal loss for the greater progression of a society. They are truly brave.

5th February 2018: #ChildrensMentalHealthWeek / Waskerley Way / The Kindness of Memory

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for the mental health of children being highlighted this week #ChildrensMentalHealthWeek. Like many issues, the impact of events early in life guide towards effects later on. A child's health is very important, and it is important that those who impact their upbringing, (in the home, in their schools, in their friendships) are informed and equipped with the resources to best help.

for new sounds from Waskerley Way. The day has come... get your ears around Firelight.

for a warm radiation feeling of kind and open times with friends over the last few days. The mood repeats in positive variations in the memory. Memory is often a harder teacher on me, both over positive and negative issues - I'm glad to recognise a more gentle relationship with it.

4th February 2018: Taxi Driver / Comfortable Bed / Returning Home

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for the taxi driver who kindly waited when I told him I was locked inside.

for friends kindly giving me a comfortable bed when I stayed over.

for the feeling of returning after a wonderful weekend away.

3rd February 2018: Singing Scarecrow / North-East Intertwined / The Folk Horror Festival

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for a charming scarecrow, singing about murder.

for discovering present North East worlds within worlds.

for the curation and celebration of The Folk Horror Festival in Manchester.

2nd February 2018: Mountain Slice / Music / The Hanged Man

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for the sliced side of mountains revealing a stack of sheets; copper, red and brown.

for the opportunity to perform music to an audience again.

for The Hanged Man, imagined with a mannequin of a female anatomy

1st February 2018: Restringing / Counselling Ending / Black History Month

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for the process of restringing instruments.

for the emotions that coming to the end of a course of counselling, a mixture of excitement to move forward with what I have learned, but also nervous in letting go of this incredibly generous support.

for the cause and support of Black History Month.

31st January 2018: Feeling Of Emergency / Super Blue Blood Moon / Personal Stories

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for the feeling of emergency

for the Super Blue Blood Moon. It was not so distinct from my view here in Suffolk, but was bold and full. Some of the photographed images online were gorgeous.

for a personal email whose sole purpose was to share personal stories. A great privilege to receive.

30th January 2018: Diet / Dog Carers / Deray's Voice / Bill Ponderosa

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for the feeling that came to me as I picked up a paper bag of prescriptions. It conjured the emotions similar those times I've picked up a McDonalds bag. It got me thinking about the similarities between the servicing of diet, in spite of the substitution of content.

for those that are dedicated to looking after their dogs fully, for those who take care with their diet, and walk them regularly and routinely.

for the timbre of Deray McKesson’s voice. It really responses well with the microphones used on Pod Save The People.

for Bill ‘Pondy’ Ponderosa. Perfectly selfish and misguided character.

29th January 2018: Surprise & Sorrow / Howard Shore's Scores / Watership Down

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for seeing someone I let down indirectly a long time ago and feeling sorrow about what happened. Though these feelings hurt, and I cannot amend anything now with this person, I know inside I care about them, and I know that I have learned. May these feeling motivate positive actions to give back in other ways.

for Howard Shore’s film scores.

for Watership Down

28th January 2018: Cinema Memories / Shining Edge Of A Sword / Tastelessness

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for remembering what parts of what cinema I was sat in when I saw certain movies for the first time.

for the sharp, shining edge of a sword.

for the swords my gran kept, disguised as walking-sticks. They were exciting to me as a child. I am still thrilled by their deception.

for tastelessness, expressions of tastelessness. Words and acting as another can take us to imaginary places beyond our beliefs, outside of our beliefs, and these role-plays can help us challenge our feelings and understandings, for ourselves, for others. To play outside what is comfortable. To not pretend we are naive, where the surface level of any expression is all that is considered. Context. Context. Context.

27th January 2018: Surprise Gift / Forgiving Dr M. / Defenders Against Nazis

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for receiving a surprise gift.

for Bob Hercule and Cheri Pugh’s film ‘Forgiving Dr. M’ and the questions it asks. 

for those that sought to protect one another under the threat and brutality of the Nazis. For those who still do. #HolocaustMemorialDay

26th January 2018: Eating In Company / Sunlight In Shade / Peter Greenaway

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for eating in the company of others.

for a streak of sunlight illuminating a passage of path otherwise shadowed by trees.

for Peter Greenaway. Film can be the most incredibly dense and informative medium.

25th January 2018: Cunnilingus / Nicolas Cage / Werner Herzog

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for the pleasure of cunnilingus.

for Nicolas Cage’s screen presence. Even when he’s bad, he’s good. And when he’s good, he’s glorious.

for Werner Herzog. He is a master filmmaker.

24th January 2018: Old Man / Bells In Music / Mark E. Smith

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for the amusement of an old short man shuffling into a short queue in front of me at the Doctors. He did it so seamlessly. I can never know for certain if this was simply his senses not alerting him to his flaunting of the traditional method, or whether he was taking advantage of his societal identity, but it brought a wry smile to my face.

for the bell rings in my friend’s song Send Forth A Smell! messing with my walking. I kept thinking I was about to be overtaken by a bike. It was a peculiar and pleasantly humiliating experience.

for MES and what he brought.

23rd January 2018: Group Dynamics / Snake In The Mind / Flooded Meadows

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for the classic combination: Brawn, Brains, Good Looks & Wildcard. I believe Pod Save America is a current example of this mix.

for a snake (as in growing from a basket, as in reacting to a snake-charmer) appearing in a meditation that then became Twombly’s red hoop-de-loops from the Bacchus series. 

for the meadows being flooded with water, and the way it changes the landscape so.

22nd January 2018: Helping Mum / Matt Chamberlain's Drumming / Eagerness To Write New Songs

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for being able to help my Mum directly with her work.

for Matt Chamberlain’s drumming.

for an itch to write new songs, having handed my previous ones over for mixing/mastering. It has stretched the stomach, strengthened the muscle.

21st January 2018: Omelettes / Calling / James Cromwell

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for Omelettes. It’s a celebratory form!

for a challenge, what I shall imagine is a rubix cube or a number of rubix cubes. I am not certain of the conclusive state, or perhaps where certain chapters will end, but I have faith and imagination for where they might. I have unsolved problems that compel my efforts. I cannot leave them however much, when I am feeling tired, I would like to. This is me, these things are in me.

for James Cromwell, using his privileged position, to draw more attention to those standing up against fracking.

20th January 2018: Dad's Art Books / French Cinema / Dentist Exam Going Well

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for Dad’s collection of visual art books.

for French cinema.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GEP5LbhS4MA

for passing an annual dental check-up without incident. Pleased to see X-rays of my teeth too. It's a privilege to see oneself through that lens.  

http://blog.ninapaley.com/2018/01/01/24-free-goddess-gifs/

19th January 2018: Enduring Ofsted / Nursing Stories / Finishing Album Stage

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for my friend seeing out his Ofsted week.

for Mum sharing stories of her days working in Nursing.

for finishing an important stage of an album of songs, and sending out all materials for mixing/mastering. 

18th January 2018: Counsellor / Power Of Wind / wetransfer

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for my Counsellor. 

for the power of the wind - as described by pulled-up and flattened trees, roadside.

for wetransfer, and the ease it offers.

17th January 2018: Dad & Binoculars / Forgiveness / Complimentary Music

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for the unusual image of looking out of my bedroom window to see my Dad looking back, from the pavement, looking back just above - up at the roof through binoculars.

for forgiveness.

for a complimentary Chow Mwng EP with TQ magazine.

16th January 2018: Transition / Limmy's Twitter / Good Work Done In The Dark

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for transition, in all its forms, but most for the idea of everything always being in transition, there is nothing that is not transition. If something appears still, what it is off-set by is moving, and therefore a transition is still occurring.

for Limmy’s use of twitter. Few utilise character, irony, bravery, and what is in between words/meanings so well is this medium.

for those who check for and recognise good work done in the dark, without needing the vindication of the crowd, public approval for dopamine etc...

15th January 2018: Martin Luther King Jr. / Rainbows / UK Citizenship

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for the commitment of Martin Luther King Jr. and Coretta Scott King

for rainbows.

for being able to listen first hand testament of the process one must go through to gain UK Citizenship, and the great number of hoops one must go through to gain it.

14th January 2018: Merlin / David Sylvester Interviews / Mum Visiting A Friend

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for Merlin, the Beagle.

for the style and content of David Sylvester interviews with Francis Bacon.

for Mum visiting a friend.

13th January 2018: Lord Buckhead / Album Wrap / Creativity Keeping You Up

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for the level head of Lord Buckethead in these times.

for my album wrapping up for mixing this week. The end in sight!

for creativity keeping you up late at night.

12th January 2018: Turkish Delight / Maggi Hambling / Bowie Miming

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for Turkish Delight.

for Maggi Hambling

for Bowie showing Warhol how he made him feel in that filming session. Miming pulling his guts out.

11th January 2018: The Wicker Man / Crème Brûlée / DACA Deal

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for The Wicker Man - the music, the songs, the tension, the texture and grain of the film, the performances, the sensuality, the sexuality, the fear, the turnings. I love this film very much.

for Crème Brûlée

for those fighting to secure the rights for DREAMers in the DACADeal.

10th January 2018: EW / Queen / Memory Of The Feeling Of Book, Not The Book

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for Endless Window and their ongoing triumphs.

for Queen
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HivQgkNSO8k

for the memory of a book that I read in childhood that I faintly recall, but cannot locate. For the warm feeling the memory of it gives in spite of my not being able to recall hardly any firm details.

9th January 2018: Sex / Masturbation / Pro-Active Discussion

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for present and connecting sex

for casual or eager masturbation

for parents / teachers who pro-actively open up dialogue about sex with their children early.

8th January 2018: JR / Long Talk / Gesamtkunstwerk

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for JR
http://www.jr-art.net/

for a long talk with a close friend about important passions.

for them informing me about Gesamtkunstwerk, and thankful for the energy and inspiration that concept encourages.

7th January 2018: The Holy Mountain / Live Performance / Social Media Is A Tool

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for the film, The Holy Mountain

for a live performance in 2018 confirmed, and supported.

for the mantra ‘Social Media is a tool’. It is something to aid, to be useful. If it is not serving you and your life, you are in service to others through it or entertaining the void.

6th January 2018: Friend's Birthday / Telephone Call / Cracked Lips

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for a friend’s birthday.

for a telephone call catching up with a good friend.

for cracked lips.

5th January 2018: Matt Berry / Ben's Photography / Kinder Scout & Edale

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for the many talents of Matt Berry. Such a joyful and skilled performer and artist.

for a friend’s photography skills and their generosity in taking some photos of me. It felt part of an important ritual, the end results additional to the process.

for Kinder Scout and the memories of the trip to Edale I had with my middle-school as a pre-teen. For a football game on concrete high up in our lodging, bunk-beds, the vistas. The teacher’s almost successful attempt to keep Alton Towers a secret as a surprise treat on our final day of the trip.

4th January 2018: Proposition / The Puzzles Of Songs / The Blob

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for a lovely proposition from a friend, and something further to look forward to in 2018.

for finding the sources to the love of a recently discovered song - realising my attraction for its heart was established a long time ago in a few different places. Pieces of a puzzle over time.

for the film, The Blob. I watched it too early as a child and it scared me greatly. I think it was to do with the fact it moved slowly and steadily and yet people found themselves incapable of escape. Time/death perhaps. Predator/Prey perhaps. Avoidance not being an option, perhaps.

3rd January 2018: Paracetamol, Garlic, Lemon & Water / Being Looked After / Healthiness

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for paracetamol, garlic, lemon and water.

for being looked after and cared for.

for being ill helping me to appreciate when I am healthy.

2nd January 2018: Fist Bump / Mentos / End Of The Party

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for a stranger’s fist-bump on the train.

for the emotional links to various times in my life the taste of Mentos gives me.

for the end of the party, and looking forward to spending time working again.

1st January 2018: Endless Nights / Piccadilly Records / The Keep

Today, to be thankful / to be grateful,

for endless nights.

for Piccadilly Records

for the film, The Keep.