31st October 2017: Complicated Feelings / Private Things / Recognising Compromise

Hello cold night, I am thankful for this house. I am grateful for this home.

for realising that complicated feelings have stunted my creative work today, and for the education and support I have that makes this a much more manageable problem than in previous years. I used to battle at the disappointment, learning to let it wash over is so liberating.

for the things in my days that I am deeply thankful for that are private, or not for this place. I am thankful for these things and, as someone prone to oversharing, thankful for recognising the positive reasons for sharing information selectively and appropriate to certain people.

for this space out, and to recognise how much I used to compromise for others, a behaviour that flourished from low self-esteem. Next year, in particular, will be a big test of improving myself from this knowledge.